June 2008
9 posts
Anticipation
What happens if he decides it’s all too much? What happens if he isn’t ready for that much of a commitment? He has 6 years of college left. Four at the very least.
He has big plans. I’m just scared he’s going to decide that I’m not a part of them. My lease is up at the end of July. He said he’d let me know in a week. I know it’s a big decision to...
My apartment is finally finished. I’ll be going home tomorrow. I have a lot of cleaning to do.. But since all the painting is done.. I’ll finally be able to put down the rug I bought. It seems a bit pointless though, I mean, eh. I’m looking for a new apartment. I really hope I find one soon. I can’t move til the end of July.. but I’ll need to find a place first.
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Marlee is coming! =)
Angi (Jayson’s sister) is at the hospital.. Marlee will be born today! =) I just talked to Vicky, and she said Angi fully dialated! The doctors said the baby will be here by 3.. but of course, a little while ago they said before noon!
Either way.. I’m so excited! :D YAY!
I know I’m in no hurry to have another baby.. but I’m more than willing to hold someone else’s...
Cody's Challenge
I’m searching for the pictures but as soon as I find them and I can get them online.. I’ll show you that Jade and I look alike too :D Yay!
Should have known..
He texted me today, he wanted to talk. I asked him why he thought I’d want to talk to him after what happened. He had the nerve to act like he didn’t know a damn thing. He acted like nothing happened. What The Fuck?! HE FUCKING RAPED ME!!!! Then he wants to talk? Like everything is fucking peachy?! He’s fucked up… but I knew that. I was the one that was...
I’m still alive. I promise! I know I haven’t been online in quite awhile. I found a keylogger and a few other things on my computer.. so I’m not using it until it’s been cleared. So, no computer at home for awhile.
But that’s not what I was wanting to write about.. A lot has happened since my last post. More than I’d ever want to admit. But, Jayson is right.....
I appreciated him, but at the same time, I took him for granted. I hurt him. And because of that I almost lost him. I know I’ll never find anyone else that treats me better than he does. I doubt I’d even find someone that comes close. If I don’t want to lose him, I know what I have to do. I know I can do it. I HAVE to do it. I don’t want to know what my life would be like...
